Thursday, November 9, 2017

The Nail

"We interrupt our regularly scheduled nightly reading to bring you this important Blog Announcement..."

I've been thinking about this for a while, I think it's just time to call it what it is.

I am officially abandoning this blog. I've been failing spectacularly to do it for years now, I guess. I have no following to speak of, and I don't update it at all anymore, and it just feels like a stone dragging me down at this point... I'm not even sure blogs are a thing anymore. I feel like a relic from a by-gone era. I feel out of sync.

To tell you the complete truth, my few faithful followers still reading this, I no longer feel like an artist anymore.

I've tried to fight it and attempt to keep up, but I just can't. I can't keep lying to myself. I cannot find the time or energy to even draw a doodle, a sketch- nothing. This Inktober kind of really put things in perspective. I failed more than even I can believe.

So, thank you to my few followers. I am sorry if I let you down. While that is probably not accurate- the truth is, I let myself down. Now I just have to figure out what to do with the rest of my life. And how to use Twitter and Instagram, or what the hell a Tumblr is...haha

RIP Amanda Candler's Blog: Feb. 22, 2009 - Nov. 9, 2017

"We now return to our irregular sleep schedule."

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

Dark Night of the Soul

I'll try to keep this brief, without too much detail, but-

All that stuff about how a character has to go through the "dark night of the soul" in order to come out on top and have a true victory at the end of a film- it's complete crap when it's your actual LIFE! I've seen characters in so many stories and films that suffer these scenes, you know? Those Oscar-clip moments where they break down and sob and reaffirm their determination of seeing something through- of going for that dream.

It's all complete crap when it actually happens to you- because it doesn't last for only a scene. It doesn't last for only a few painful minutes with a killer score. And the crying is not a beautifully lit moment- it is UGLY. It is painful. It is the WORST!

And let me tell you- you don't ALWAYS end up wanting to reaffirm your desire to continue trying for that dream. Sometimes that dream beats you up so much that you actually start to think maybe you should give up. Maybe you won't make it. Maybe your whole pursuit of this dream was an utter waste. Maybe it was the single worst decision in your life. Maybe this whole dream thing has irrevocably destroyed the rest of your life...

But they don't make films about the people who give up, do they? I leave the answers to you.

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

Unlike Taylor Swift, I'm not dead...

Just busy.

But I just HAD to come and share the announcement! I have been published!

A local author who happens to be a friend of mine asked me to design the cover illustration for his new book- and it came out today! I am beyond honored and he has been very happy with the result. So much so that he had the original framed and hanging up in his apartment less than 24 hours fter he had it in his hot little hands! XD

Please help support the author and purchase the book. It is a great read and was a real page-turner for me!

Thursday, May 11, 2017

Day 131 of 365

Wait... what day is it?

This isn't the only thing I have on the burner right now. Too many projects and not enough hours in the day!

Really looking forward to fixing these.

Friday, May 5, 2017

Day 125 of 365

"Apprised in time of the visit paid him, Monte Cristo had, from behind the blinds of his pavilion, as minutely observed the baron, by means of an excellent lorgnette, as Danglars himself had scrutinized the house, garden, and servants. "That fellow has a decidedly bad countenance," said the count in a tone of disgust, as he shut up his glass into its ivory case. "How comes it that all do not retreat in aversion at sight of that flat, receding, serpent-like forehead, round, vulture-shaped head, and sharp-hooked nose, like the beak of a buzzard?" - The Count of Monte Cristo

A work-in-progress.

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Day 123 of 365

My second of four Celtic knots I have planned. Unfortunately, will be redoing BOTH the Oak and this Birch one because of errors. The Oak knot is wrong and this one, I hate the BG color. The yellow leaves were supposed to be vivid and bright, but I misjudged and made the BG too close. My own fault.... I love orange! Live and learn.... But think of it as a bonus for you guys. More art from me!

The next one will be so much better!