Making Dreams Come True...: Long Gone- and overdue

My poor poor blog. And poor followers.

I have been kind of absent, haven't I? I am so sorry. Films dominate everything.

Well, as I said- my film has ruled my life for the past few months now, and the deadline was yesterday at 4 PM. I suddenly find myself with a lot more time on my hands. Well, in theory. In reality, I have no more or less time than I did before, but I have one less thing to fill that time. I can't say that I have nothing to do now for the last month of my four years here at CalArts- far from it! In fact, I would almost say I have MORE to do in the next month. I am still searching for my place in the industry- looking for jobs and applying and, the worst part of all, waiting... Waiting to hear back if they want me or not.

I don't care what anyone else says- waiting to hear back from people you so very desperately WANT to work for is the worst thing. (First-world problems, I know, I know...) But it's sheer agony. Okay, need to get off this topic, before I descend into something I cannot dig my way out of.

Everything in my life has suffered for my film. I haven't been to work in two weeks? (I miss my jobs...), I haven't been to classes in three (saving up all those missed classes was the smartest thing I did this semester!), and my room looks like death. My cube, however, is pristine. You would think since I was basically LIVING there that it would be the other way around- but no, the place where I am not is where it is most messy. I cannot stand the mess immediately around me when I work, so I keep everything tidy. haha Meals became an optional thing for the past three days. I had dinner on Sunday with a friend and did not eat an actual meal again until about 2 hours ago. I didn't physically leave the cube in almost 32 hours. My body STILL aches.*

*- for any of you current or soon-to-be, or even you hopeful, Character Animation students, I DO NOT- I repeat- DO NOT condone this as an effective method of getting films- OR ANYTHING ELSE- done! This is highly bad for you. Good time management is better any day! I do not list these numbers as a bragging thing, like "Oh look how cool I am! I didn't sleep for two days!"- in fact, quite the opposite. Some students in our department consider this some sort of badge of honor. Who can sleep the least amount? Me, I think far more of people who get sleep every night. Why? Because it is what we have to look forward to when we leave this place and work for a company that will NOT appreciate you wearing the same clothes three days in a row. Just sayin'... I'm opinionated. Deal with it.

I am serious, though. My body hurts. From sitting in that lab, from being on that computer. My body aches from head to toe.

I am looking forward to doing all the things I haven't done in months in the coming month. I want to sit in the sun. I want to read for fun. I want to find my knitting and try to do a little. I want to draw- for FUN! I want to see friends and go places. I want to write people- haha! My family thinks I feel off the face of the planet.

I am starting a "Bucket List" for the rest of my time at CalArts. Things I want to do before graduation. The first thing on my list, sadly, is to watch more of the AFI 100 list. I have made almost no progress this year. I miss watching films. Another thing is to try my hand at stop-motion or something. I have access to all this stuff- I need to USE IT before I can't anymore! *sniff* There are so many things I said I would do while I was here. Sadly, I have done very few of them. Must fix that. Got to do it!

I guess that is it for now. I haven't been to sculpture in almost a month? so I have nothing new really to show on Joker and I slept through class today- but I should have something next week? And here- I will give you these photos of the Asterope (main character from last year's film).