Illusion of Calm

I call this entry Illusion of Calm because I was ANYTHING but Calm when I got home today and saw a VERY colorful envelope on my bed today.

I GOT ACCEPTED TO CALARTS!!!!!!




I screamed VERY loudly! My poor sister standing beside me went deaf momentarily. I then called my dad who already knew (he got the mail), my mom (her phone went straight to voice mail), my best friend Evita (she didn't pick up), my other best friend Leigh (she was most happy for me) and finally my third best friend, Rosalinda (who was also very happy for me).

I am OVER THE MOON right now!

The First Letter

The first official letter came today. My heart aches for the recipient. I know her pain. I only wish I could somehow lessen it.

No one deserves that feeling of rejection.

It only brings the possibility of my own arriving that much closer. The wait, the pain, the pressure, the stress- it's all real now. I've avoided it for months. It finally caught up with all of us.